Tag: new life

Write about your strongest memory of heart-pounding belly-twisting nervousness: what caused the adrenaline? Was it justified? How did you respond?

      It was February 7th 1996 my life was empty cold and dark. I had hit bottom. My drinking was out of control. I wanted to feel again, love again, live again. I had nothing but emptiness in my weary soul. I asked a friend if she could help me for if I had to go on living in this misery,  I would prefer death.

She took my hand and told me if I wanted to live that I should attend an Alcoholic Anonymous meeting. 

I choose to live that day. I remember driving alone to the meeting so afraid that my entire body was shaking, for my adrenaline was pounding so hard I could barely walk up the five steps to the door.

I made it ( by the grace of God/Positive – Energy) I opened the door and there must have been 1000 eyes intently looking through my soul.

I cried all the way through the meeting for everyone was telling my story. They were different stories but the same feelings of hopelessness, shame, regret then hope. 

They all spoke of how they had overcome this disease of addiction,  they all had a bright light in their new eyes that they were given as a result of working the twelve steps of the program. 

These people were so wonderful.  The took me under their wings and loved me until I could love myself.

I was amazed before I was half way through. I was 6 months sober when a job offer took my family and I to Japan. I celebrated my first year of sobriety in Yokoskua Japan.

That was the absolute best year of my entire life! God/Positive Energy had done for me what I could not do for myself.  I have been rocketed into a fourth dimension of existence I had never dreamed possible.

There is hope for anyone that wants to live, love and dream again. 

~I~

Came too

Came to listen

Came to believe :~}