GRIEF OUT LOUD

GRIEF OUT LOUD

I cry out loud, but no ears can hear me.

I scream into my pillow to hide my pain.

I am protected by the walls I built.

At times, I see a picture of hope.

But when I reach for it

I find that it’s only a negative.

I do not know where to go or what I feel

I have no place to run or even if I can.

I am alone.

I am afraid.

I am trapped inside the eye of my storm

Paralyzed~`°•▪︎

Help me please,

God

~Dee~

MY BROKEN HEART

My heart was broken into a thousand pieces. 💔💔

I was too weak to pick them up.

I asked God if he could do it for me.

He picked them up and put the prices together again.

I noticed that there we two important pieces missing. 

I asked God: “what happened to them?”

He said:  “They are in heaven.” 

I said: “thank you Father…”

Then, I noticed that there were several pieces scrached, cracked and broken. 

I asked “God why they were in this condition?”

God said,  “I’m in the process of fixing them, be patient.”

I said: “okay, I’m sorry, but could you help me to trust you more?”

He said: “Of course.”

I said,  “thank you. “

God: “Smile.”

I smiled too…👀 

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🩷

By Donna Brown Bowles ©

JOSHUA LEVI AND THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THE NUMBER SEVEN

JOSHUA LEVI 1994

JOSHUA LEVI
DOB –  2-19-1994
DOD – 1- 29-2022

JOSHUA LEVI AND THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THE NUMBER SEVEN

Published 01/23/2024

Joshua was 27 years old when he left this world.
He was the 7th child.
Number on his ashes 6777
6777=fggg IN HEBREW means
*Found/ forever* & 
god god god
So joshua is with god 777. Also the fact that the three sevens is complete for the Father SON and the
HOLLY SPIRIT 777

The name Joshua comes from the Hebrew name “Yehoshua,” meaning “God is deliverance.” In the Old Testament of the Bible, Joshua was the Israelite leader who succeeded Moses and led the Hebrews to the Promised Land. Origin: Yehoshua is derived from yeho (meaning God) and shua (meaning to deliver or save).Aug 5, 2021
Joshua is a traditionally masculine name with Hebrew roots. In the Bible, Joshua was selected as Moses’ successor to lead the Israelites. The name Joshua means “Jehovah is generous” or “Jehovah saves.” It comes from the Hebrew Yehoshua, which means salvation.

The Hebrew word heart is Lev. The word Levi means,
MY HEART.

The number seven. No need to think a lot, research, study or consider, since Seven is so
obviously the ending number that doesn’t need any
justification.
Now for starters we have the earth and the sky
current, and I say present (not Genesis 1: 1), the earth
and the current heavens are made in six days and God will cease to His work on the seventh day. In fact, this is how the Bible begins, and it is interesting to note that when the Bible ends, ends with a book where the words, “this
Book “, are found seven times, where there are seven cups,
seven bowls, seven trumpets, seven candlesticks, seven spirits and seven churches. The Book, being an infinite Book, goes in a circle (and anyone who reads the book of Revelation already knows), like the Tree of Life found in Genesis appears in
Apocalypse. God’s paradise in Genesis appears in
Apocalypse, and he takes you back in a circle.
Seven is clearly the number of completion. (And my Son Joshua Levi was 27 when he left this world)
This is evident at the beginning of the Bible and at the end of the Bible. Yes it was not obvious from here, one would see immediately upon studying Levi’ticus 23 and 25 that God did not does nothing without “seven”. In fact, the word seven in Hebrew is the same word as swearing or getting under oath. When the Lord says, “I have sworn by myself/himself “, he has cut himself, or as they say in the
dice table: “seven is eleven”. Seven is the end. (And 777 trumps 6 when Playing poker
# on ashes 6777)
Nature does nothing for ten. Does everything at
seven.
If you are a man or a woman, you have seven members in your body, the body being the trunk. The trunk of the
body, the body proper, has seven limbs sticking out of him. Man or woman, you have
seven members.
(Levi 7th child)
Thats not all; there are only seven colors. If a man has red, yellow and blue, the primaries, orange, green and purple, the side and black, he can make or mix any color that is. You say, “What about white?” White is absence of colour. “White” people are called “white” because of the absence of pigmentation in the skin. (They are not really white;
your skin is actually “pink” due to the blood flowing through below. If they were really white, they would be dead!)
it is an absence of color. That is the point. So if a man
has seven colors, he can paint anything, because seven wind up. There are no more than seven colors.
So you have seven notes on the musical scale. There is not a piece of music that comes from the pen of
Beethoven, Brahms, Bach, Tschaikovsky, Rachmaninoff,
Stravinsky, Schumann, Schubert, Mendelssohn, Handel,
Rimski-Korsakov; none of them ever wrote anything
that he used more than seven notes. You see that the black notes in a piano are not true notes; they are what you call
half notes. The notes are the white notes, and when
You hit the eighth note, you’re playing the same as the first because one octave higher than the first is Eight. There are only seven notes on a piano. That’s all there are; there is no more. When you get to eight, you go up one eighth from the first. So there are not many doubts about the number seven. Neither you even have to start tracing it in word
of God. Wherever you find seven, it will end, and
Either seven seven or seventy seven or seventy times seven,
that’s the end.
It is very interesting to note that in Clarence Larkin’s Dispensational Truth, you’ll find all the Israel’s history divided into periods of 490 years each, which
it is clearly 7 times 70–490. You can verify that in the deal dispensational with Israel: God’s plan to divide the things of according to the seven. Seven is simply and clearly beyond any reputation the number of completion. And although the
Gentiles count by ten, and we will see why later, God counts by seven.
777; it is three times completed. That is the perfection of the Trinity times, and that is the one you are Son. With the father, Son and Holy Spirit of God forever and always. We’ll all be together soon and “it won’t be long at all.”
Love always and forever,
Mom.

JOSHUA LEVI JONES

I AM COMING TO GET YOU

JOSHUA LEVI
02/19/1994 – 01-29-2022

January 29, 2023.

LEVI went to heaven January 29, 2022
He’s now one year old in heaven. An innocent baby, a child of GOD, he’s with his real Father in heaven, and I cannot wait to see his beautiful face and smile again!!!
Come quickly my Lord, my Father and my Savior, JESUS CHRIST.

FROM JESUS:
I am coming to get you very soon! Donna, you will be reunited with your Son, your family, and your real Father in heaven. Stay close to me for you are my daughter and Levi is with Me for, I AM his Father as well as your’s. Watch for me and keep the light that I have given you. For JESUS IS the light that shines in the darkness and the darkness CANNOT put it out. Love Always and forever, GOD.

~JESUS CHRIST,
THE SON OF GOD ~

JESUS IS COMING ❤️💙💚💛🧡❤️

I AM SO GLAD THAT I NEVER LET YOU GO

BY Donna B. AKA ~ DEE~©
February 28, 2022.

Published from WordPress

I AM, So Glad That I Never Let You Go

He was so young but so much older than the rest,
making people laugh where ever he would nest.

There were times when friends would hug him
for a day and they would whisper, “Levi, I love you, don’t you ever go away.”

Defeat was his challenge, to conquer peace within.
There were times he would ask a question,
“God, when will this ever end?”

And sometimes he’d catch smile , from the eyes of them that see.
This always made him happy to complete his endless destiny.

New friends, replaced his brothers and sisters as well.

But he always missed his family of, a time so long ago;  a painful memory trapped in time, where only he could go.

The years robbed his smile as he remembered, how it used to be.

As he walked his last mile in the bitter cold.
He was hoping someone would find him and never let him go.

His eyes filled up with clouds and he could not see the road.

Suddenly, he realized that he had taken a wrong turn.  A trap was set by the enemy.

No one was there to witness what happened on that night.

I guess we’ll never know.

No one to hear him speak his last words of regret.

No one was there to catch him when he fell upon the snow.

No one was there to hold him when he had breathed his last breath.

No one to say goodbye
as, he closed his eyes,
for the last time.

And fell…


However, I think there is something, you all would like to know.

Just before he hit the ground; God opened up His arms and caught him, before he fell, upon the snow..

He said, “Joshua my precious child, I just want to let you know, that my Son, Jesus, died for you, to wash you white as snow;
now, my son, let us return to heaven, where you left so long ago and, as far as your family, ‘it won’t be long at all’  and Joshua,
I AM so glad that,
I never let you go…”

JOSHUA LEVI ALASKA 1998
Levi’s lovely girlfriend Mycah

IT WON’T BE LONG AT ALL

IT WON’T BE LONG AT ALL

IT WON’T BE LONG AT ALL

By Donna B. AKA ~Dee

published from WordPress.

June 27, 2022 ©

When will my heart stop beating so this ache will go away?

When will the pain leave me to live another day?

When will my heart find peace in the absence of my son?

When will this despair leave my heart alone?

When will my tears stop bleeding in crimson tones?

When will the hole in my heart be filled with hope again?

When will I stop regretting all the years that you were gone, the times we missed,  the miles you walked alone, the tears that fell in isolation, when you were so far away from home?

When will I stop thinking of the thousand miles of storms that you wandered in the cold?

When will I stop hearing your last words, “Help me mom, I need you; I’m about to fall?”

When will I stop thinking that something went very wrong?

When will I forget that cold night that you stopped singing your last song?

When will I stop seeing your shadow on every wall?

When will I stop hearing your
Whisper…  “I love you mom, be strong, we’ll be together soon; it won’t be long at all.”

My dearest son, Levi, had reluctantly left this earth on January 29, 2022.
His last echo is infinite but
“it won’t be long at all.”

By Donna Brown Bowles
(C) June 27, 2022

I AM SO SORRY

Levi, I’m so  sorry that  you couldn’t be here on your birthday.

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t tell you how precious your spirit was before you left this earth.

I’m so sorry that I let you down.

I’m sorry that I didn’t ask you to come home.

I’m so sorry that I didn’t pray on the night you went away.

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t be there to hold you when you were all alone…

I’m sorry that you had to leave this world alone…

I’m sorry that I couldn’t tell you how much I loved you.

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t tell you how important you were to me. Before you fell that night.

I’m so sorry that you couldn’t be here on your birthday so, I could hug you with all my might.

I am so sorry that I cannot see your smile one last time…

I’m so sorry that you left before I could say goodbye.

I’m so sorry…

I’m so sorry…

I’m so sorry…

Love always, and forever…
Regretfully,
Mom.🩵💙🩵

Published on WordPress

February 19, 2022

By Donna Jones Bowles

AKA Dee Biggins

MY HOW TIME SLIPS AWAY

MY HOW TIME SLIPS AWAY
By Donna Brown Bowles AKA Dee ©
July 16, 2018

You have been gone so long.
We wished you weren’t so far away.
We pray for you every night.
Zoey prayed for you to come home today.

Well, I thought you might want to know that zoey graduated from kindergarten today.
His smile, how it lit up the room.
He so reminded me of you.
All the other moms were there.
His teacher said, “Sometimes he’s happy, but most of the time, he misses you.”

Oh, how we wish that you were there.
All the kids sang a song.
To thank the moms that came along.
But Zoey didn’t participate.
He just sat alone.
And wrote you a little poem.

The teacher said he could read his now.
But Zoey said he’s saving it for a special day.
When his mom comes home.

With every day that’s gone by, another memory slips away.
All the springs, summers, and falls and lonesome winters without you here.
My, how time slips away.

Zoey said to send his love.
His eyes filled up with tears as he looked at your picture on the wall.

I guess that’s how life becomes when moms are sad; the pain takes away all they have.
And son’s dream their dreams at night.
And tears fall all winter.
And summer comes
Eventually.

And time just slips away…

[By Donna Bowles AKA

Dee (C)
July 16 2018